Hello Hello.....is there anybody in there.......:)

Okay you ought to give me the leeway since this is the first time i am scribbling and penning down my thoughts and having realised my competencies, I surely know that writing doesnt come to me that naturally...anyways, i think the weather is a little sombre, we the lesser mortals leading a life consumed by slow decay were blessed with much needed showers...the Almighty up above decided to bestow upon us with something to cheer about...but the vicious circle of life persuades me to search light at the end of the tunnel in half despair, and half apathy...

But well, as always, a little confused and a little more confounded than I usually am....and at the time when the clock gongs 11..I am thinking about my life in general...suffering from a disease that is incurable - "shortano attentiono Spania", you will often find me hopping from one thought to another, not being particularly decisive about any...well as a democratic citizen of a secular state (ha ha ha...i know you all are laughing), I leave my anecdotal or at times apocryphal boring string of words interwoven into some ridiculous form open to interpretations...:)

its kind of funny how one or two transactions that life has with u, can change the outlook and approach...most often life brings you to a cross road wherein the decision has to be made in terms of 'either' or 'or'..I in particular have never favoured this catastrophic approach of elimination, for that never comes naturally to me...

my soul is going through the same conundrum, unfortunately Life has chosen her to be the special person to go through the litmus test..and being one of the few who are cursed with a good heart (yeah u read me right, in todays times, a good heart is actually a curse)..:) she is finding it rather difficult to make the 'either' or choice...

you know its a little perplexing to think about the situations that life throws on us, especially the cases wherein you are prisoner of your past and you find it difficult to unshackle or break away from the same...at the same time life helps you dream of the 'ideal' future wherein at a later stage when things turn into effective realities, you realise that your dream was as truthful as a mirage...

may be there are some questions which are still unanswered, there is a lot of nebulity that surrounds the life at the moment....someone who i want to be with, wants to be with someone...and someone who I dont want to be with, doesnt want to be with someone...if the words were not enough to take you deep into a never ending trench of confusions, how about an unthinkable prophecy which has been consuming me slowly as the time passes by...

law of the land suggests you to never impugn the gospel, which in my case happens to be someones' unconditional love for someone who might not want to spend the rest of her life with the 'someone'...at times God also has unconventional harbingers who unveil themselves in the form of excrucianingly tough puzzles, and missing links.....

well reminiscence of the sweet lullaby and the sweet memories of childhood, pink floyds comfortably numb in the background exhorting me to learn from the signs, are they trying to tell me something..its a 'question mark'..?:)